Not a 'Good' mood, but I'd call it a better mood

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I'm sitting here at work thinking about what has happened in the past month and a half, and I keep hearing snatches of what I was told as I stood in the middle of the circle. Without going into the details of the ritual, I was Challenged and/or blessed by the Lord and Lady as well as each of the elements. I don't remember exactly what I was told by the Lord and Lady, but I do remember pieces of what I was told by the elements. Earth blessed me and told me that I would be able to find strength in Her. Water told me that it was going to feel like I was going through rapids, but that I could always come to Her for refreshment and tranquility when it was needed. Fire scared me. Fire was everything I feared in life as far as the unknown and the challenges I will face. Fire kept asking me if I could "take the heat". I was just too damn scared to respond, and finally was told that if He didn't consume me, the result would be like a tempered blade that could withstand the stresses that would be coming. Air, it would seem, is the only one who I can't remember...maybe I am still figuring out how what was said fits in for me. As it goes, I believe I am going through my first fire. My head still doesn't feel like it is on 100% straight and I'm feeling more lost and alone than I ever have in my entire life. As I said at the beginning, it's not a 'Good' mood, but it is a better one...Take care.