"You are such an inspiration..."

[blckwngdorcl]

"...For the way I will never ever choose to be." is how that quote ends. That one comes from a Tool song I believe. It sums up how I feel right now, being the example of how NOT to be. I came to a conclusion last night: I am not a needed cog in the grand scheme of things. Work? If I left, there would be another button-pusher taking my place within the week. Trybalaka? They prooved that not only do they not need me, but that they sound better WITHOUT me. Right there are the two main focuses in my life. I feel as if I could just walk away from everything and evryone, and it would be like a pebble tosed into the ocean as far as impact goes. My wife thinks that I should make a list of how I see things and then make another one that is the exact opposite and try to live that one. Right now, I don't think that I can come up with anything positive right now. I'll try to keep everyone posted on how it turns out. Take care